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Freedom!

Today is July 12th. My restrictions are finally lifted! Z was pretty excited to rip up the last piece of paper in our countdown chain.

Some things (like coughing and sneezing) still hurt more than I would like. Some things – like when I was driving the car today and needed to turn the wheel all the way to turn – present new areas of pain. I guess some of my muscles are a little tight and not used to moving in those directions anymore. All of that will come with time.

 

On some sad other notes:

Death seems to be the theme this last week.

JJ’s 93 year old grandma passed away on Saturday. It was not a surprise and since she loved the Lord, we were glad to see her pain cease. She will be missed dearly. JJ and Z headed out of town this morning to see family and attend her funeral. We decided it was a bit to far of a car ride for me and fresh off my restrictions, we aren’t sure how exhausted I will be just getting back up to full steam. (My mom is still in town, helping me transition to being “full time”.)

And if you’ve seen the news, you know what happened on Thursday here in Dallas. While we did not know any of the officers personally, Sargent Michael Smith was a member of our church. He served almost every Sunday keeping an eye out at our children’s building. We know God’s plans are greater than our plans – but it is still a difficult time for my church body and our city.

 

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A prolonged Saturday?

Sometimes, it feels like we are living in the “Saturday.”

There was Friday (it was bitter, but good) and there was Sunday (we Know Christ is Risen) – but what do we do with right now?

He Lives. The Victory is won. But there is still pain; there is still sorrow in the World.

It feels like we know Friday happened, we know he promised to rise in three days. We know He fulfiled that promise and in fact did rise on that First Easter Morning. Now we are living in the “in-between” – in the light of his Promise to return again. A Saturday of sorts?

Waiting, with hope, for Sunday? He is coming back.

I don’t point out our current Saturday situation simply to reflect on the downtrodden and weary issues of the day. I say it  with a sense of wonder and hope; a sense of anticipation and excitement.

Easter reminds me how glorious it must have been to first discover the grave was empty.  And if the grave could not contain him – death has no power. In this Saturday, what do we have to fear?

With an empty grave and death losing its sting – I can’t help but hold a transfixed eye on the Savior who is Perfect Love.

There are no more powerful credentials he could present that that of keeping the first promise to rise.   One Marvelous day, we will once again see with our eyes, the Risen Lord.  His word is good. His promises hold strong.

It was Friday. It may be Saturday, but we Know – Sunday’s a Comin’.

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Lisa

L-R Michelle, Sophie, Lisa, Debra, Paula at our friend Jenni's wedding

wow… It’s been an incredible couple of years.  I am so thankful to have met Lisa two years ago.

Lisa had an infectious smile.  Seriously, think “Stereotypical, gorgeous Texas Woman” and that was Lisa. She could line dance. She could wear the fanciest high heals with confidence. She could walk into any room and instantly have new friends. She would do anything for her friends. Need an encouraging text? Have a bad day and want to have a shoulder to cry on? Want a nice note in the mail via snail mail out of the blue? one word: Lisa.

On our first small group meeting, she shared about her recent health issues, how she had a very rare tumor and surgery to take it out cost her part of her lung.  It sounded serious, but we all prayed with her and thanked the Lord that so far, she was able to move forward, increasingly with distance in time from the illness.

We celebrated together a year ago when she had a clean scan. No tumor!

We laughed together until we cried at her parents house for our small group retreat last spring. I don’t even remember what we were laughing at, but it was marvelous.

Also last spring, she sat a boy (my now husband) down for a conversation about “his view on relationships” drawing out info to pass along to me. (I had no idea she did this until after!)  After my hubby & I started dating, I learned that she had numerous conversations with him, including a “Don’t you break her heart! Don’t you String her along!” conversation.

We cheered her along, prayed for her, as she traveled to Bulgaria in the summer to train and equip christians as well as to work with orphans.

She encouraged and uplifted me as we worked together to be wise and make good financial decisions.

We prayed profusely as word that the tumor was back and she needed surgery again. When the September surgery didn’t go as well as hoped, we prayed, we laughed, we visited, we believed that God’s plan is unknown to us and it is better than we could imagine.

We cried when the tumor was back again 2 weeks ago and the outlook was not good.

We knew the end was coming quick. We know that God loves Lisa more than any of us.

And today we celebrate.

With tears in our eyes, but a song in our heart, we know that Lisa is with our Heavenly Father.

She is no longer in pain. She is no longer sick. She is no longer fighting. No longer struggling with the things of this world.  She is with the One who loves her.  Peace and Comfort. Warmth and Light. And a place where she can once again, use her beautiful voice to praise the One paid her debts and will one day raise her life up from the dead.

Finally I ask, do you know the One? Did you know that he paid your debt (just like he paid Lisa’s & mine?). And he promises to raise your life up from the dead. Both litterally in the future (we’ll all die) BUT also Now.

Live life abundantly, because that is why he came. Lisa lived life to the fullest because of Christ. I hope my life Count’s for Christ as the example that Lisa set did.  I hope that one day, it will be known that I lived Life Abundantly, because of Christ.

John 10:10b I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full.

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The summer has lost its voice.

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From 1995 on, I was a baseball fan. No. I was a Mariners fan.

My high school summers were spent playing solitare, drinking ice tea, munching on sunflower seeds, all while listening to Dave Niehaus call Mariner games on 710 Kiro.

Radio is how the game should be enjoyed.  For Mariner games, it just won’t be the same.

My Oh My

It Will Fly Away

Get out the rye bread and the mustard, Grandma, it is grand salami time

It just continues.

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Ruth Graham

The world lost an amazing woman today. Ruth Graham, wife of Rev. Billy Graham passed way this afternoon.

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speechless

Wow, what a sad week. The tragic events that took place at Virgina Tech…I was at work Monday morning, where one of my tasks is to look for Wheaton in the news. Usually when I do this each Monday, inevitably, I also see the days headlines. Well this particular Monday, I must have finished early because someone else in our office came across what was going on first.

And tomorrow (4-20) the eighth anniversary of the Columbine tragedy. Ever since then (I was a senior in high school at the time) I find myself thinking on occasion “if someone started shooting right now, what would I do?” I thought this at Rogers while finish up my last few weeks. I thought it at different places of employment over the years. Now I find myself thinking it here at Wheaton.

I wonder how anyone can deal with this without having the peace that goes hand-in-hand with knowing God is sovereign.

Tomorrow, I think I will join the nation and wear orange.

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Kalamari has died

Who is Kalamari? Kalamari was my beta that my brother gave me over 3 years ago for my birthday. When I moved to Chicago, my friend C.J. said she would be willing to look after him. (or maybe her daughter volunteered her for the job) So for the last 5 months Kalamari has been the fish that lives at Christ Community Baptist Church. We were discussing over Christmas Break how it was amazing that the fish had lived this long. And, Kalamari had some strange habits like floating close to the top of the water for long periods of time without moving. So often over the last three years I thought the fish died. I guess Kalamari continued these habits at church and often church people would think the fish was dead. I also heard that the kids loved to come in and poke him.

Please, a moment of silence for Kalamari. Farewell my little friend.

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