Disneyland Experiences

***I’ve intended to blog about this for years. If I ever write a book, you can bet some items I am about to touch on will play a significant part of my story. ***

When I was a little girl I had a reoccurring dream. Actually, I had a few. One involved camping in pueblos with my family when a buffalo stampede headed in our direction. Even though I could never get packed up and in the car on time, no one was ever injured or killed because I woke myself up before the buffalo arrived.

But I digress. This particular reoccurring dream was really more of a reoccurring motif. The specific details always varied, but the setting and outcome were completely consistent. In one fashion or another I was about to go to Disneyland. Tickets in hand, or perhaps in line purchasing tickets. It always ended the same. I woke up right before entering the park. Perhaps I woke up because I had to use the bathroom, or maybe my alarm went off.

But every. single. time.

I woke up. No Disneyland.

I’m in no way superstitious, except for maybe with sports. (Don’t call it a perfect game. It’s x number up, x number down until it’s 27 up, 27 down. Then feel free to call it what it is, perfect.)

I don’t think my dreams carry prophetic power. Expect for maybe that one time I dreamed an airplane was falling out of the sky, toward me, because it’s engines fell off. While the dream was intense and extremely scary, it didn’t strike me as unsual because it was only a few days after 9/11. But then this happened the day after my birthday that year : “The plane’s two engines also separated from the aircraft before it hit the ground.” (I DON’T think my dreams are prophetic. This was just a terrifying coincidence.)

Anyway – back to my Disneyland dreams.  The fact that I almost got to Disneyland but never got through the gates, that gut check of disappointment has stayed with me. When it comes to real life, I’ve had some major disappointments hit me pretty hard. A few of them, if I’m honest, rung up in my mind as “Disneyland experiences” when I was in the middle of them.

What I mean by that is as I was walking forward into a hopeful experience, something settled into my gut and my mind as “I don’t think this is really going to happen. I think this is surreal. I think this is a Disneyland experience.” and then sure enough, whatever it was fell through and didn’t happen.

A few of my more memorable Disneyland experiences are as follows:

*The time I expected to be in concert choir in 12th grade. It was something I worked for since 7th grade and I was hopeful, but something rang a little sour in my mind. It was something I wanted so bad, I thought it would not really happen. Sadly – my audition was not my best and I didn’t make it.

*I applied to Moody Bible Institute (twice).  Both times, my grades, my life experiences, my ability to write and communicate – all pointed to me be accepted no questions asked. And yet, in my mind, I had a hard time actually picturing myself in Chicago, going to college. Shocking everyone – except maybe me? – I was not accepted (twice).

*Going to China to teach English. I was on a team in college that was headed to China to teach English. We prepared all year. I was skeptical that little Debra would actually get to travel to over an ocean to China. When we had our printed tickets in had, I started to give into the idea that it was really happening. Then five days before we were to leave, the trip was cancelled (thanks SARS).

Don’t get me wrong – I’ve been wrong. I’ve had the “Disneyland experience” gut feeling and the expected experience came to pass. I didn’t really believe I was going to Wheaton for graduate school until we were in the car driving there. I’m thankful to have been wrong. (Although, I was partly right – Mark Noll, the professor I wanted to learn from the most and the reason I applied to Wheaton, left Wheaton after 27 years. He took a position at Notre Dame. This took placy during the one year between my acceptance and attendance when I deferred so I could pay off my car before school. No Mark Noll. “Disneyland Experience” strikes again.)

And as odd as it may sound to say, I’m thankful I was right sometimes too.

Maybe this is why some think I’m pessimistic. I considered myself a realist. I don’t want to get my emotions involved on the front end of things too early. If something seems to good to be true, it often is. It’s ok that these “Disneyland experiences” fell through.

Some of my biggest disappointments are paramount in shaping me into the person I am today. If I went to Moody, I missed out on Edmonton & NABC/Taylor. And come on, who doesn’t want to have a school in their past that had two names, was so small it’s now closed, and played sports in the city league. 😉  I kid! I wouldn’t trade the friendships and growth as an intellectual Christian for the world. I LOVED my time in the True North. And as a bonus, I attended school in Chicago later anyway.

Honestly, because I know things can go terrible wrong, not as hoped and dreamed, but still be ok – if not better – in the long run, it helps me continue to have a concrete trust that God is good. That God loves me. That God loves my family. That his plans are better than I could imagine. Better than I can dream.

My son’s memory verse right now for church is Psalms 18:30. God’s way is perfect. All the Lord’s promises prove true.

Even if that means my ticket to Disneyland just got sucked up into a tornado. Who knows, it could. I do live in Tornado Alley after all.

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Good morning!

I’ve already walked down and gotten a chest x-Ray. Yes walked… Yesterday they wheeled me down and the day before, the came to me – so I’m making progress.

Just sitting here drinking an ensure, waiting for the kitchen to open (I’ll probably order a ham & cheese omelette), checking the results of the Mariners game. Seems fitting, last night they had their biggest come back in club history. Tonight the M’s play here – maybe I’ll watch some of the game.

Thanks for the continued prayers. I’ve been feeling better and walking more each day.

Free Baseball

I’m a baseball fan and when baseball goes into extra innings, it’s fondly referred to as “free baseball.”

This extra week pre-surgery feels like such with my family.

We weren’t planning on it (my empty fridge and lack of any fresh produce can attest to this), but we will enjoy it nonetheless.

A picture of my guys goofing around this evening.

Go Sports

I’ve blogged about sports quite a bit, since I love the Seattle Mariners along with several other Pacific North West teams (and a few Edmonton teams).

If you’ve read along, or know me at all, you know I’ve not had the best luck as a sports fan. You can read more about that here and here.

But I wanted to add something I wrote as a facebook post.  These were my thoughts the day after My Seattle Seahawks won the Super Bowl:

I realize for most of the US of A, yesterday’s game was incredibly boring. For the people of Seattle, and for those of us who grew up in Seattle and have always been Seattle sports fans… this was a long time in coming. The game was Incredible to watch. Seriously, that was the fasted the Super Bowl was ever played (or so it seemed to me).

The last time one of the “big 4” professional sports teams won for Seattle was before I was born.

To paraphrase something my brother told his young girls last night as the game ended – ‘Hey! Listen up. Enjoy this. It might never happen again.’ You see, he’s a Bears fan. We lived in Chicago when he was about 7 years old. We saw the Monsters of the Midway win…. It might only happen once in your life (or at least it can feel that way).

So to all the sports fans who don’t live in New York, or New England, or city with a dynasty team. To those that don’t see their team win all the time, or expect another championship is right around the corner – this entire year was pretty fun. Last night was just the celebration of a something we Seattle fans knew all along, our team was incredibly good. Keep rooting for your team. Someday, it might be you watching the Best Championship Game of your life, even if the rest of the country could care less.

Me? I’m going to enjoy this a bit. Let it sink in. I’ve rooted for teams for 33 years and the only time my Seattle boys have won was yesterday. Besides that… I still have about 2 weeks until pitchers and catchers report right?

Go Hawks!

Reverse the Curse

I’m a sports fan. Due to my health, I’ve never been much of an athlete – but ever since I was 14 and the 1995 Mariners pulled me in to a new world, I’ve been a sports fan.

Sometimes, this is awesome. As a teenager, all of a sudden, I had things I could talk about and really enjoy with my three brothers and dad, all of whom love sports.

Sometimes, this is not awesome.  Let me give you a quick summary of all the teams I’ve rooted for over the years:

*Seattle Mariners: In 1995, after beating the Yankees in a 5 game series (after being down 2-0) they couldn’t get past Cleveland. They lost Game 6 of the ALCS. To this day, have gotten to the ALCS one other time, but never made it to the World Series. (Even the year they won 116 games – tying the record for most wins in a season.)

*USA Hockey: In 2002, I was living in Canada for college. The Salt Lake City Olympics featured TWO gold metal hockey games (both Men’s & Women’s) where Canada beat the USA. It was miserable to watch with my Canadian friends.

*Edmonton Eskimos: I was still living in Edmonton Alberta in 2003.  The CFL team went to the Grey Cup. And Lost.

*Edmonton Oilers: 2006 – Since I went to school in Edmonton, I adopted the Oilers as my hockey team. They were the come from behind kids, only to get to the 7th game of the Stanley Cup finals, and lose.

*Seattle Seahawks: Lost the Superbowl in 2006

*Chicago Bears: They did win the Superbowl when I lived in Chicago, but I was only 5 years old and don’t remember the win.  In Grad School, it was 2007 and I lived in Chicago again. The Bears lost the Superbowl.

*Seattle Super Sonics: This one is so bad that the Sonics moved to OKC in 2008 and changed their name. I’ve been rooting against the Thunder ever since. (Maybe the one bright spot? I was forced to root for the Miami Heat to beat the Thunder in the finals. And the Heat won….Lesser of two evils.) I wrote off the NBA for a few years, until I was married to a Spurs fan.

*San Antonio Spurs: My adopted team, thanks to my husband, made it to the finals this year. As is the pattern of my life, they lost in the finals.

So there you go. And I’ll not even attempt to claim all the foibles of the Cubs as mine. They are my second favorite baseball team.  Since I was born in Chicago and have lived there a total of 8 years, the loveable losers have a special place in my heart as well.

All of that being said, I refuse to give up. I WILL cheer for my teams. And one year, one of them will WIN. I’m hoping this is the year. I’m banking on the curse being reversed. I’m ROOTING for the SEAHAWKS.  — And that’s all there is to it.

Growing Family

Ok, so – no big announcement here – it’s not my immediate family growing – it’s all THREE of my brothers’!

Up until this point only one brother had any kids (three girls) – now in 2012, there will be 4 new nephews! One brother’s son arrived in May, one brother found out they are having a boy in the fall, and just yesterday, my baby brother (can I still refer to him as that?) found out that their twins arriving late fall are both boys.

BOOM! Just like that the girl cousins are out numbered.

Growing up as the only girl with three brothers, I never did the math to realize they would grow up and produce a little army.  But I’m so excited for all of them. As one sister-in-law put it – they are growing an “army of FUN!”

It will be pretty sweet that there will be 4 boy cousins all the same age.  AND add 4 more mariner fans to the world. 😉

(and let me tell you – we are already working on upping the Gift budget)

Is it Christmas yet? Can all the nephews be born now – and I can go home to visit already?

Happy to be Alive Day

Just a quick post to say “Happy ‘Happy to be Alive’ Day!”

Side note – It’s a perfect day to go to a Mariners’ game. 🙂

Baseball in June

Ok. It’s the end of June. And you know what? My Mariners are in contention!

Last year, this was not the case in June.

M’s are only 1 game back of TX.  So I’m rooting for the M’s and rooting against the Rangers. In the past, My DFW friends could not wrap their minds around why I would root against the Rangers.  With the M’s nipping at their heels, maybe they will finally understand.  As a Seattle Mariners fan, I cannot root for other AL West teams during the regular season. Period.

Now I’m just hoping that when the M’s come to town in August, it won’t be too hot to head over to the ball park and catch a game.

Wonderful Trip

I haven’t blogged in a while. Partly, because we were out-of-town and I suddenly felt very self-conscious about telling the world our house was unoccupied.

We just got back from a 12 day trip to the Northwest. We had a great time with my parents, brother & sis-in-law, and had the joy of meeting up with several of my friends.

Here are some of the things we did:

*visited Mt. Rainier (69 degrees, sunshine and 20 feet of snow)

*Olympic National Park

*Point Refinance, Chambers Bay

*Seattle (Safeco, M’s game & underground tour)

*Ferry ride into Seattle at night

*played 2 games of Settlers (one game had 6 people, my brother came in last place with 8 points, four of us had 9, and the winner got to 10 first!)

*learned a new game “Dominion” which we really enjoyed and will probably be purchasing

*had a Memorial day BBQ

*Went to the Tacoma Glass Museum, Tacoma Art Museum, and WA State history museum

*ate at the new Ivars in Puyallup

It was a jam-packed trip – but we also had a couple of days to lay low, enjoy the cloudy, drizzly weather and sleep in.

We’re Going to Washington

whoohoo!  We are almost at our 6 month anniversary, so I’m so excited that my friends back home in WA State will finally have a chance to meet my hubby.

Initially we were going to try and go in July so that the weather will be nice, but plane tickets cost to much.  We ended up bumping up the trip dates significantly. So while the weather might be a little cool – I don’t have to wait as long to go.

We already have a Mariners game on the schedule and are also planning on spending a day in Seattle (maybe even going on the underground tour).

Other than that, I have stuff at my parents we need to sort through and either get rid of or ship to DFW.

I’m also really looking forward to driving around and pointing out all the places of my childhood. (he’s going to get board 🙂 )